(HP同人)It Actually Hurts(英文版)
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drao slowly oo oo speak properly.
& the suit in his wardrobe that eveared at it fer than robably normal. but he ould. not only did that suit look ompletely out of pe, to his other lothes, it also felt out of pe. beause that suit seemed to be holding a promise; a promise drao was fairly sure potter wouldo keep.
saturday, 18 january 2003
“i brought you something,” potter said as he stepped out of the firepe. drao peeked over and saw he was holding a bottle of ogden’s fi.
“at least you have the seifts,” he drawled, not b to get out of his armhair and turning his attention bak to his book.
&hought sihat fany bottle of wiher night, i’d make up for it.”
“fany,” drao ser really had wis 190 galleons.”
&ared at him. “ould you pay 190 galleons for a bottle of wi’s insane!”
drao pihe bridge of nose and shook his head. “i have a feeling you wouldn’t uand, eve to you.”
“aw, you know how muh i like it when y all snooty and ouous,” pered. he walked ihe armrest. drao inhed away from him, eyeiially.
“what are you doing?” he asked.
“i’m waiting fet us gsses,” ped.
“you khey are,” drao retorted. “don’t at like you haven’t bee every day for the st week. you probably know this pe better than me by now.”
prinned ahe armrest. drao oint out he ould have just summohe gsses, but he kept his mouth shut as his eyes wao potter’s bakside. it was a shame he seemed to prefer loose lothing. then agai so muh more rination, whih, ohought, wasn’t neessarily a good thing. daydreaming about potter retty muh all he was doing these days. speh him, it seemed, only amplified his desire. ahough it got harder to deal with it, he thought he was dood job at hiding it.
well, he definitely should have khree gsses itiional agaily, his mother’s birthday was oming up. she would have turter didell drao how muh he missed his parents. he ould hear the sorrow and the yearning in his voie, in every shudderih. drao ould more unomfortable or onfused. all he wao do ; his arms around potter and omfort him. he settled fhtly trembling hand on his shoulder.
“i’m sorry,” he muttered, avoiding looking at potter. he was absolutely sure his heart wouldo take what he would find in potter’s eyes.
&oo,” potter said hoarsely. and suddenly, drao felt a warm hand on his. “what do you think our lives would be like if voldemort had ed?”
drao was osed to be a rhetorial question. probably, siialking without waiting for an answer.
“you know, a week before the trials, they gave me your file.”
drao st. he hadn’t known that. oh merlin! that probably meant potter had read all the transripts of his questionings. had they also made how drao had broken down in tears? how he had tried to fight the veritaserum, sreaming, beause he didn’t want to relive every horrible detail of the st few years while a bunh ers were srutinising him?
“holy, i had to take a few breaks. i ould all at one.” he squeezed drao’s hand. “i aleted it must have been horrible for you, beier, but…what they did to you—”
“potter—” drao snathed his hand away, his fae twisting. he really, really didn’t want to talk about this.
“sorry,” potter mumbled. drao ould feel his eyes ohy that robably shining brightly i i think it’s remarkable how you made it through that ahe persooday.”
drao let out a humh. “yeah, a pompous git as you like to put it.”
“you know i’m just teasihat’s what i’m trying to—”
“i have nightmares,” drao blurted. “not as ofte—” as soon as the words had left his lips, he wished he ould take them bak. he always tried so hard to anybody see how muh he was still hurting, how damaged he was. he didn’t like how his braio ig partiur preautioo be ompletely shutting down in potter’s presene.
&oo,” potter said quietly. “it’s really not fair, is it? vohe battle isn’t over.”
drao said nothing, his throat quikly losing up.
“but i guess we’re trying, right?” drao felt potter shift beside him and saw him grab the firewhiskey out of the orner of his eyes. “another one?”
wordlessly, drao haer his gss. hopefully, the alohol would make this talk easier. or better yet, it would lead to a differeirely, a happier one. drao should have known he should be areful what to wish for. half of that bottle ter, their oion had turo a gerous baning at for him.
“how in merlin’s name were you able to keep that a seret?” he shrieked, ed. pled. he atually giggled!
“believe me, it e in publi together,” potter said with a sigh. “ultimately, it was too muh pressure. we were both unhappy, so we e.”
drao shook his head and took another sip. “i annot believe you dated oliver wood! for almost two years! without anyone knowing!”
&o be fair, we didher that often. he was always travelling and training like a mania.”